Balloon Tribute for Baby Blueberry Gracie

This is a blueberry that my friend Kyoko found growing in her garden the day Gracie went to heaven. You may remember me saying this already, that we nicknamed Gracie before we knew that she was a girl, "Blueberry" because when I was having morning sickness I kept having to drink BlueRaspberry Icees to keep from getting sick. December isn't really the time of year when you see blueberries growing. I have to think that this was another way that God was showing me that he is taking care of her up in heaven.

This is our dear friends Kyoko, Brian, Maya and Ani. They let off some balloons for Gracie in remembrance of her. The tribute to her is how God is healing me each day and I'm grateful for their taking time to remember her and share it with me.

I've had a couple of rough days, feeling very blue and low energy. I'm sure it's to be expected. I've been trying to force myself to get into the Christmas spirit, it's a lot easier with Gavin around who can't wait until Santa comes and until he can open presents. I made some Christmas cookies yesterday and some Christmas bars today. Tomorrow I'm planning to make my favorite Rocky Road. My baby comedian, Gavin, cracked me up today, when we were watching Regis and Kelly and Regis was out for a hip surgery. Gavin asked me, "where's Regis?"

The most important part of Christmas this year for me is recognizing what Jesus did for me. His sacrifice made a way for us all to be together in heaven someday.

If I could talk to Gracie right now I would tell her:
Sweet baby girl Gracie you brought more faith, hope and most importantly love to a world that needs it than I ever thought a tiny baby could. We're so thankful for your life. Mommy, Daddy and Gavin miss you so much and can't wait for the day when we will see you in heaven.