Friday, January 21, 2011

Those lyrics really got to me

Last night I was watching Amer.ican Id.ol and heard the song by Car.rie Under.wood, called Temporary Home for the first time. A mom of a baby that was diagnosed at 20 weeks, with hydrocephalis and was told her baby would not live, sang it. Her baby Keira is living and is doing well.

It was so touching to hear these lyrics and I had a good cry over them:

"This is our temporary home.
It's not where we belong.
Windows and rooms that we're passin' through.
This is just a stop, on the way to where we're going.
I'm not afraid because I know this is our
Temporary Home."

I wish it felt more temporary. I'm sure it will one day. I love you my babies.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Another Year and already another loss

We were hoping, not expecting as we used to, that we would have another baby due Aug.1, 2011. We prayed and prayed that Gavin and Gracie would have a new sister or brother to stay with us here but God said no and January 2, 2011, at 10 weeks pregnant to the dot, our baby Snowflake was miscarried and went to be with Gracie in heaven. It's so heartbreaking to have half your family in heaven and half on earth.

I have to believe that God knows how much it breaks our hearts and hurts us to be without Snowflake. But I believe he has something bigger and greater to gain having us go through this. And I don't want to become bitter and miss out on whatever amazing thing he must be trying to do to allow all this heartache. So I'm going to have faith and turn to Him who heals the broken hearted and follow in obedience to whatever he would like us to do.

I have another blog that I was writing about our trying to conceive journey and if you'd like to be invited to read it just email me: moncadaque (at) hotmail (dot) com