The other thing that God revealed to me was through another blogger who wrote about being a wounded healer. Most of my healing so far has been through God using someone who has been through this to speak the truth to me and provide comfort. Not everybody gets to be a wounded healer.
Here's a quote written on the looking for blue sky blog:
Abbas Child by Brennan Manning"In a futile attempt to erase our past, we deprive
the community of our healing gift. If we conceal our wounds out of fear and
shame, our inner darkness can neither be illuminated nor become a light for
others. As Deitrich Bonhoeffer said, ‘Guilt is an idol. But when we dare to live
as forgiven men and women, we join the wounded healers and draw closer to
Jesus.’ The Wounded Healer implies that grace and healing are communicated
through the vulnerability of men and women who have been fractured and
heartbroken by life. In Love’s service, only wounded healers can serve"So I guess I can live through these dark sad spells that flash through me knowing that I may one day be able to help someone who's been through it. My sufferering is not futile. If I'm not able to accomplish God's purpose for my life without going through this then I'm not going to fight it. I'm going to get through it knowing that I wouldn't be able to help others as well if I wasn't wounded also.