Thursday, April 8, 2010

My Redeemer Lives

I know how the weather feels. Seriously, we have had rain for the last who knows how long, many days, no sunshine and overcast skies. It snowed about 30 minutes ago and now it's sunny. I have had about a week of the worst despair and depression I've ever felt. I had a hard time getting out of bed for the first time since we lost Gracie. My faith was shaken. Verses like: "I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord plans to prosper you and give you a hope and future," meant nothing to me in fact I said "no he doesn't" to that. I know.....I was shaken!! I have never been so distrustful of God. And last night God reminded me of how much he loves Baby Cherry, Gracie and all the other babies lost too soon and wouldn't miss being with them for nothing. I believe he didn't want any of them to die so soon, this fallen world caused that. And he is able to redeem it. He is able to heal my heart that has just about crumbled into the smallest bits and now he is putting it back together better than it was before. God is not jerking us around he is redeeming each and every broken situation. And this morning I wanted to get out of bed. My Redeemer lives.

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Hold My Heart, performed by Tenth Avenue North


  1. I'm sorry it's been dark for you recently and I pray that the darkness lifts. I hate the times when I feel low.

  2. I'm so sorry you've felt so sad and down lately. I've been thinking of you and your sweet Gracie! XO Hope you get some brighter days!

  3. oh, i've been so depressed and devastated just like the beginning again over the past few days. i too have felt i'm in complete darkness, that God is nowhere to be found. reading your blog helps me to see the good, but i have a long hard road of healing ahead of me. i am so thankful for you.

  4. I will be praying for you! I am so sorry it has been a down week. It has for me too. God will redeem us all!!! Spring is coming up there soon! Not only as a season outside, but in your life too. :)